Permanent One

so i had a conversation with him
presenting myself like some shameless being
as i keep on removing layers of secrets,
piece by piece
un-strangling myself, revealing it
how come he is so baring?
patient, so patient
where does the patience come from?
after all the things i did?
the situation i've been in
anyone could abandon
but he had the courage to stay
he doesn't want to leave
and i ask him?
i ask myself?
why? why in the name of God he doesn't want to leave?
he pays attention to my bullshit
doesn't listen, pays attention carefully
and trust me a million times i have tried to run away
tested myself, resisting him
i want to distract myself from him
but he doesn't want to, fucking becoming my habit
yet i asked him "will you ever leave me?"
"no way i don't see that happening ever, i won't ever leave"
" you really thing you can bare with my tantrums, my roller coaster emotions, put up with me"

"no, i believe i would love to be part of this crazy ride, i won't ever leave"
 my permanent one in this temporary world
guess you are my forever, guess your struck with me